Im reading old posts that I have in my other blog. It's so weird to be reading something that I wrote such a long time ago. To remember, sometimes it doesnt feel like the author was me. There was so many things that was going on in my life at the time, it made me see that I was so young. So determine to see things cynically. Or childishly.
It's like a breath of fresh air.
It reminded me of how I loved to write but was not allowed to express fully how I feel, afraid that it would make 'someone' mad. Why do you put yourself out there, for the world to see? It's not a matter of wanting the world to see -- it's a mere effort to express my emotions and thoughts healthily. In a way where I'd love doing it. By writing.
We can be whoever we want to be in our writings. But it's not the reality. I hope I can still remember that. Our life, takes us wherever we want to go. Given that we put in a little effort. And more if we need to.
Reading about my past, it got me thinking. Be thankful that you're alive. For 21 years! You are alive and healthy. And for years to come, I really do hope so.
Until the next post.
Love, Aqi.
Friday, October 9, 2009
.where it matters.
If it matters, make it known that it matters.
Ok, staying home without the car -- and absolutely no money -- is not so bad. I sleep all day. I wake up and online and then catch up on some TV time. Then to the bathroom, before putting on an oversize shirt -- this is so comfortable ok -- and shorts. Then dinner and just lazing around. HAH!
The best holiday, though it feels really short. Maybe because IT IS short. Oh,well. I dont mind starting the new semester. I kinda miss it. This semester will include : Basic Accounting for Lawyers, General Principles Of Law II, Introduction To Law and Critical Thinking. The one I'm actually not looking forward to is the Basic Accounting. That's why I went into Science Stream in the first place. But, what the hell, I dont mind giving it a try. :)
I hope I did well on my finals. I hate repeating. :/ Pray for me! && I cannot wait for my baby blue Kelisa to be discharged from the hospital! Sorry baby, for denting you.
&& I miss you Muhammad Asraf. :( Good luck for tmrw's exam. I know it's Math, but I believe in you! GO GO ACAP! :D
Until the next post!
Love, Aqi.
Ok, staying home without the car -- and absolutely no money -- is not so bad. I sleep all day. I wake up and online and then catch up on some TV time. Then to the bathroom, before putting on an oversize shirt -- this is so comfortable ok -- and shorts. Then dinner and just lazing around. HAH!
The best holiday, though it feels really short. Maybe because IT IS short. Oh,well. I dont mind starting the new semester. I kinda miss it. This semester will include : Basic Accounting for Lawyers, General Principles Of Law II, Introduction To Law and Critical Thinking. The one I'm actually not looking forward to is the Basic Accounting. That's why I went into Science Stream in the first place. But, what the hell, I dont mind giving it a try. :)
I hope I did well on my finals. I hate repeating. :/ Pray for me! && I cannot wait for my baby blue Kelisa to be discharged from the hospital! Sorry baby, for denting you.
&& I miss you Muhammad Asraf. :( Good luck for tmrw's exam. I know it's Math, but I believe in you! GO GO ACAP! :D
Until the next post!
Love, Aqi.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Changeling ?
When things change, do you change too? Or do you stay the same?
I've often seen, the people around me constantly changing. They can be this way one day, and another way the next day. And if it's so easy for them to change, am I easily changing too? We cant see the things that we do, but other people are the ones that notice it. Change is good right? I cant say that for everyone though. Some of my friends are changing into people that I cant relate to much, but the friendship remains because we have so much history with each other.
When you're in a new environment, a change from the usual surrounding that you are accustomed to, do you tend to conform into a person who's more suited to be in that certain environment? I think for me, I can be a chameleon. I can adjust myself into new surroundings, but everyone has their limits. And my limits are easy to reach. I need people to accept me for who I am, so I tend to be who I am even in front of people I dont know. In mind that the respect must be there. If I can respect them, then they should at least give me the same respect. Understanding that there is always a line that you must not cross, is important. You cant go around acting like you're the only one in this world. When you think that you matter, well -- you dont. Not really anyway. To your parents maybe, but that's just because they love you unconditionally. But to other people, how much you matter to them? Well.. Let's just say I cant answer that.
I am beginning to feel like there are certain things in my life now, that are really different. Like for an example -- I am more calm now. I am more comfortable in being who I am. I wasnt like that years ago. And it's so hard to convince myself that I am who I am, no matter what. I see things differently. I guess my thinking is still the same as always, my beliefs and all that. But I wasnt really good at dealing with my emotions and how I feel. Now, I think Im better at that. Losing something that is pretty important to me crushed me, and I could have been miserable externally. But by following my feelings too much, I could have made the people around me miserable too. And who would want to see a group pf people sulking? I think I'd rather make myself happy, so that I can see the people around me happy. It's better to see five smiles than five frowns, right? Im grateful, that I get to learn so many things and feel so many experiences. Even if, not all of it are good ones. It makes me who I am today. For the things that happened in the past, I am moving on. If you have things that you've held on to, let it go. If you really love something, then you should set it free, let it go. Then breathe.
There is no use in holding on to memories. They can be remembered, not dwelled on. Looking to make new memories is what's important, because life is too short. When you say that just by saying it is easy -- but you know what, nothing is easy. It's all up to you. Whether you want to do it, or not.
Until the next post! *wave wave*
Love, Aqi.
I've often seen, the people around me constantly changing. They can be this way one day, and another way the next day. And if it's so easy for them to change, am I easily changing too? We cant see the things that we do, but other people are the ones that notice it. Change is good right? I cant say that for everyone though. Some of my friends are changing into people that I cant relate to much, but the friendship remains because we have so much history with each other.
When you're in a new environment, a change from the usual surrounding that you are accustomed to, do you tend to conform into a person who's more suited to be in that certain environment? I think for me, I can be a chameleon. I can adjust myself into new surroundings, but everyone has their limits. And my limits are easy to reach. I need people to accept me for who I am, so I tend to be who I am even in front of people I dont know. In mind that the respect must be there. If I can respect them, then they should at least give me the same respect. Understanding that there is always a line that you must not cross, is important. You cant go around acting like you're the only one in this world. When you think that you matter, well -- you dont. Not really anyway. To your parents maybe, but that's just because they love you unconditionally. But to other people, how much you matter to them? Well.. Let's just say I cant answer that.
I am beginning to feel like there are certain things in my life now, that are really different. Like for an example -- I am more calm now. I am more comfortable in being who I am. I wasnt like that years ago. And it's so hard to convince myself that I am who I am, no matter what. I see things differently. I guess my thinking is still the same as always, my beliefs and all that. But I wasnt really good at dealing with my emotions and how I feel. Now, I think Im better at that. Losing something that is pretty important to me crushed me, and I could have been miserable externally. But by following my feelings too much, I could have made the people around me miserable too. And who would want to see a group pf people sulking? I think I'd rather make myself happy, so that I can see the people around me happy. It's better to see five smiles than five frowns, right? Im grateful, that I get to learn so many things and feel so many experiences. Even if, not all of it are good ones. It makes me who I am today. For the things that happened in the past, I am moving on. If you have things that you've held on to, let it go. If you really love something, then you should set it free, let it go. Then breathe.
There is no use in holding on to memories. They can be remembered, not dwelled on. Looking to make new memories is what's important, because life is too short. When you say that just by saying it is easy -- but you know what, nothing is easy. It's all up to you. Whether you want to do it, or not.
Until the next post! *wave wave*
Love, Aqi.
head throbbing ; blegh
It's funny how when it was such a hype that everyone was so worried to get sick during the H1N1 brief phase. That now when it's finally quieted down, I get sick. I wasnt even sick, even for a bit these past few months. And now here I am in my room with eyes burning and nose running and throat itching and voice sounding more and more like there's a wad of tissue stuffed into my nose.
"Org kata ni maybe penyakit rindu ni. Alaa,berjauhan sikit nak sakit mengada la pulak kan!" HAHA!
Mama said the death rates are going down gor H1N1, but now Dengue is on the rise. So people, watch out for unwanted mosquitoes. Not that there are any wanted ones. Nyehehe. But seriously, take care of your homes and if you have a fever, check it ASAP. Or if you know anyone with symptoms of Dengue fever. You know, it can be fatal. Better be careful than regretting it later.
I ate a pill for my flu, and it was suppose to make me sleepy. But it didnt. And so I stayed awake. I walked towards my room after a few hours of watching pointless TV, my head was throbbing like it was going to explode. My heart was beating so hard I could feel it thumping. I went out to the living room again and looked for the blood pressure monitor. I checked and my blood pressure was 64 and my pulse was 92. Even after I relaxed. *Sigh*
And right now, Im still not sleeping. It's already morning. Im watching Gossip Girl on Graboid. I still have some remaining bandwidths. Im too lazy to download all the eps. I'll download the ones I dont get to watch after I used up all the free bandwidths. :) && Im txting Acap who's probably trying to study at Apek's. Dont really know if he's succeeding. Oh anyhow, GOOD LUCK you people who's taking Comp Apps for Dips Studs. Cececece! "Menyampah aku ! Nak shortform mengada pulakkk!"
OK so in regards of the warning that has been issued by me earlier in this post. Here are some info about Dengue, im posting just a bit. You go ahead and google it if you want. :) -- Mama would be so proud :D --
The signs and symptoms of Dengue fever are as follows:
- High fever (104 F, 40°C)
- Chills
- Headache
- Red eyes, pain in the eyes
- Enlarged lymph nodes
- Deep muscle and joint pains (during first hours of illness)
- Loss of appetite
- Nausea and vomiting
- Low blood pressure and heart rate
- Extreme fatigue
Basically, dengue commences with high fever and other signs as listed above for 2 to 4 days. Then, the temperature drops rapidly and intense sweating takes place. After about a day with normal temperature and a feeling of well-being, the temperature rises abruptly again. Rashes (small red bumps) show up on the arms, legs and the entire body simultaneously along with fever. However, rashes rarely occur on the face. The palms of the hands and soles of the feet may be swollen and bright red. Although the patient may feel exhausted for several weeks, most cases of dengue take approximately one week to recover. Once a person recovers from dengue, he or she will have antibodies in their bloodstream which will prevent them from having a relapse for about a year.
Prevention and Control
At present, the only method of preventing and controlling dengue fever is to eradicate the mosquito population. They are a number of ways to combat the vector mosquitoes:
- Improved water storage practices. Cover all containers to prevent egg laying female mosquitoes access to it.
- Implement proper solid waste disposal.
- Eliminate any sources that may collect water such as tins, bottles, plastic food containers and old tires. Mosquitoes breed easily in any source of standing water.
- Appropriate insecticides, such as larvicide's can be added to water containers and man-made ponds. The insecticides can prevent mosquitoes breeding for several weeks. However, they must be re-applied as per directions.
- Always clean and check drains to ensure they are not blocked especially during the rainy season.
- Breed small mosquito-eating fishes in an artificial pond to eradicate the mosquito larvae.
In addition to the above, there are a number of factors to help prevent the mosquito being attracted to human prey.
- Avoid wearing dark and tight clothing because mosquitoes are attracted to dark colours. Wear loose, white and long clothes, which cover the whole body. Mosquitoes find it difficult to bite through loose clothes than tight fitting clothes.
- Environmental conditions. It is suggested to sleep under mosquito netting or in a room which has mosquito screens on the windows. Mosquitoes are unlikely to bite in an air-conditioned room and under strong fans. Mosquito coils are also useful to help prevent mosquitoes from entering the room.
- Apply mosquito repellants.
- Avoid reduce outdoor activities during morning and late afternoon because Aedes mosquitoes are daytime feeders.
Be safe and take care.
So until the next time you peeps!
Love, Aqi.
"Org kata ni maybe penyakit rindu ni. Alaa,berjauhan sikit nak sakit mengada la pulak kan!" HAHA!
Mama said the death rates are going down gor H1N1, but now Dengue is on the rise. So people, watch out for unwanted mosquitoes. Not that there are any wanted ones. Nyehehe. But seriously, take care of your homes and if you have a fever, check it ASAP. Or if you know anyone with symptoms of Dengue fever. You know, it can be fatal. Better be careful than regretting it later.
I ate a pill for my flu, and it was suppose to make me sleepy. But it didnt. And so I stayed awake. I walked towards my room after a few hours of watching pointless TV, my head was throbbing like it was going to explode. My heart was beating so hard I could feel it thumping. I went out to the living room again and looked for the blood pressure monitor. I checked and my blood pressure was 64 and my pulse was 92. Even after I relaxed. *Sigh*
And right now, Im still not sleeping. It's already morning. Im watching Gossip Girl on Graboid. I still have some remaining bandwidths. Im too lazy to download all the eps. I'll download the ones I dont get to watch after I used up all the free bandwidths. :) && Im txting Acap who's probably trying to study at Apek's. Dont really know if he's succeeding. Oh anyhow, GOOD LUCK you people who's taking Comp Apps for Dips Studs. Cececece! "Menyampah aku ! Nak shortform mengada pulakkk!"
OK so in regards of the warning that has been issued by me earlier in this post. Here are some info about Dengue, im posting just a bit. You go ahead and google it if you want. :) -- Mama would be so proud :D --
The signs and symptoms of Dengue fever are as follows:
- High fever (104 F, 40°C)
- Chills
- Headache
- Red eyes, pain in the eyes
- Enlarged lymph nodes
- Deep muscle and joint pains (during first hours of illness)
- Loss of appetite
- Nausea and vomiting
- Low blood pressure and heart rate
- Extreme fatigue
Basically, dengue commences with high fever and other signs as listed above for 2 to 4 days. Then, the temperature drops rapidly and intense sweating takes place. After about a day with normal temperature and a feeling of well-being, the temperature rises abruptly again. Rashes (small red bumps) show up on the arms, legs and the entire body simultaneously along with fever. However, rashes rarely occur on the face. The palms of the hands and soles of the feet may be swollen and bright red. Although the patient may feel exhausted for several weeks, most cases of dengue take approximately one week to recover. Once a person recovers from dengue, he or she will have antibodies in their bloodstream which will prevent them from having a relapse for about a year.
Prevention and Control
At present, the only method of preventing and controlling dengue fever is to eradicate the mosquito population. They are a number of ways to combat the vector mosquitoes:
- Improved water storage practices. Cover all containers to prevent egg laying female mosquitoes access to it.
- Implement proper solid waste disposal.
- Eliminate any sources that may collect water such as tins, bottles, plastic food containers and old tires. Mosquitoes breed easily in any source of standing water.
- Appropriate insecticides, such as larvicide's can be added to water containers and man-made ponds. The insecticides can prevent mosquitoes breeding for several weeks. However, they must be re-applied as per directions.
- Always clean and check drains to ensure they are not blocked especially during the rainy season.
- Breed small mosquito-eating fishes in an artificial pond to eradicate the mosquito larvae.
In addition to the above, there are a number of factors to help prevent the mosquito being attracted to human prey.
- Avoid wearing dark and tight clothing because mosquitoes are attracted to dark colours. Wear loose, white and long clothes, which cover the whole body. Mosquitoes find it difficult to bite through loose clothes than tight fitting clothes.
- Environmental conditions. It is suggested to sleep under mosquito netting or in a room which has mosquito screens on the windows. Mosquitoes are unlikely to bite in an air-conditioned room and under strong fans. Mosquito coils are also useful to help prevent mosquitoes from entering the room.
- Apply mosquito repellants.
- Avoid reduce outdoor activities during morning and late afternoon because Aedes mosquitoes are daytime feeders.
Be safe and take care.
So until the next time you peeps!
Love, Aqi.
This October ; Ara Fest !
If you can come, then come to this. The details are as stated. I got this from another blogger. The admission fee is as follows :
- Rm 20 for 1 day
- Rm 35 for 2 days
- Rm 35 for 2 days
As I am told,there will be a lot of amazing bands performing. One that I am looking forward to check out is Khottal. && I believe that Search is also performing.
Some of the bands that are performing are such as,
Khottal
Pure Vibracion
Republic Of Brickfield
Second Combat
Oh Chentaku
TWKUA
Komplot
Other than live performances there will also be other activities that sounds fun, since it's a collaboration with a bike rally. :) So come on down and just enjoy the festivities.
An update for the flyer !!
&&& dont forget to pay some extra attention to We Let Them Win :D
Until the next time I feel like posting!Love, Aqi.
If you break it, you better run.
"We can't solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them."
- Albert Einstein
When I say that things have their own reasons, I think that it is closely related to that quote. When we're facing a certain problem, that we think is really big at the time. I'm pretty sure that it wont seem that way anymore after time passes by and as we look back at it. Sometimes, we can even laugh about it. I think that, that is the most overused quote I use. In everything that I do in my life, I always try to remember that there are things in my life that are suppose to happen as it did, with me liking it or not. If it doesn't turn out as it's suppose to, then in the near future, something will replace it's place to correct it. Or I can also call it karma. When something happens, I'll try to calm myself and in my head I keep telling myself that there's a reason as to why it happened.
I think one example is the fact that I am a 21-year-old, taking foundation in Law. I mean, I could have taken it earlier. But I took A Levels after finishing school and I wasn't really sure what I wanted and what's really best for me. I was supposed to take medic, but I don't know why, as much as I love it, my heart was just not into it. I guess those years I spent learning something so different than what I'm taking now has it's own reasons. As I look back now, I think I have some idea on what will happen if I've taken Law in MMU years ago. I don't think it would really be a good idea. And those reasons, I guess it's better for me to know and you not to get so interested in knowing. I'm sure we all have things that are better left unsaid, right?
It's pretty embarrassing at first that I'm the oldest -- I guess -- in my batch. But I was upfront with the people I made friends with at orientation. And some are still my friends, because we're in the same circle of friends. And the most amazing thing happened, someone so wonderful found me and made me see that love isn't really something that is predictable. Or that love have to fit into this context where you have to conform yourself so that it would seem normal. And I think nowadays being in love with someone younger than you is not that weird. Ok, for me, the person who've always given things the benefit of a doubt, I was pretty reluctant at first. The fact that I've just got out of a disastrous relationship doesn't help things at the time either. Thank you, for making me see that age REALLY does not matter. :) It was pretty hard to convince me that, it's something that I'm not suppose to push aside just because it doesn't seem to fit into what you call a normal relationship. && anyway, I think it's pretty hot. HAHA!
I think, Im growing up pretty well. I know I am not perfect. Im trying to be the best that I can -- for now, at least! There are so many things in this world that I want to soak up, and knowledge is something that you can ever get enough of. If I could, I'd want to touch,see,sense,smell and hear everything before my time runs out. Im the kind of person that tends to complicate even then simplest things. I hope if I can remember that everything has it's solutions, I can make it through another 20 years ahead. :)
&& my birthday is coming up! It's on the 15th of October. It's my 21st, so Im hoping to do something special. But I have no idea what. I hope I can figure something out before the big day. :) And people, dont forget the presents. :D Hehe.
&& another cool things is, my beloved Muhammad Asraf's birthday is on the 16th of October. And he's turning 18. Awh,he's becoming legal. I know he's excited about it. I have no idea on what to get him or what to do on his birthday. The fact that he may not be here to celebrate it with me is something that I'm not looking forward to. He's maybe going to Sarawak, -- :( -- so he says.
Oh well, I'll write more later. I dont know what I just babbled. Im listening to Paramore's new music, so Im not really paying attention to what I was writing. Sorry for grammar errors or typos. I'll tell you what I think about the album if I remember. :P
Until the next post !
Love, Aqi.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Chapter 1 : Let it begin shall we?
It's the 7th of October. It's been months since I've posted something. And this has become my overused phrase for me to say in my blog. Since im a very lazy person, I dont update much. I dont see any point in onlining that much either. I think I miss this. I'll try to write more. Today, im just going to write a post to say that -- IM BACK. :D
There's alot to write about, but I think I'll take my time. It's also the starting of a new semester. I think this is as good as any time to start a new chapter. :)
And for those that have been waiting patiently for new posts, thanks. To some, this is the only thing that's keeping you updated about me. So I'll update more. And to those that doesnt really care, dont bother reading if you're just trying to find things to talk crap about me. It's so 'mature' of you.
So -- until the next one!
Bye Bye.
There's alot to write about, but I think I'll take my time. It's also the starting of a new semester. I think this is as good as any time to start a new chapter. :)
And for those that have been waiting patiently for new posts, thanks. To some, this is the only thing that's keeping you updated about me. So I'll update more. And to those that doesnt really care, dont bother reading if you're just trying to find things to talk crap about me. It's so 'mature' of you.
So -- until the next one!
Bye Bye.
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