Ok, I havent been around. && I missed the posting for new year. I had a great one. This year it was all about the BBQ at Ema's and the JOHO event that was pretty much amazing. It was nice to meet up with friends that I dont get to always hang out with. It's been a while.
So first off, HAPPY NEW YEAR! I cant really say that I have some resolutions tucked into my backpocket somewhere. All I can say is, this year. I will try to change some things. I'd like to try to make it less routine as possible. Hey, who wants the same things as last year, right? This year will probably be really different from last year. With or without any help from me. I hope it's better. Last year was too much drama. Like that's ever going to change. EVERY year is filled with some kind of drama. Oh! I have only one resolution I guess. I think that I have this resolution for years now. It's the I-want-to-be-more-skinny resolution. No surprise there. My obsession that I just cant really obsess much about. :P
The BBQ at Ema's was wonderful. I reached her house a bit late though. Wanted to surprised her, and I did get to do that. She was pretty surprised. Most of her close friends was there. Was supposed to go to the Curve with Asraf and his friends. I've never celebrated New Year there before. Call me lame, but I just hate the crowd. I'll just suffocate in one. Maybe, I'll try it one day. Asraf followed me to Ema's house. Where I spent much time with one of my bestfriend Fida and another friend of mine, Hamzah. I had this photo taken from Zaha's Instax, of Asraf and I. I love it. I have it specially placed inside my wallet. You cant have a purse without that little space where you can put in pictures. Ok, you're really suppose to put in your ID card there I guess. But I call mine, the wall of fame. Just that, this new purse of mine is not big on the wall of fame. So I can only put in one photo. I chose that one. I'll upload the picture later. Took another one with all the ladies, for Zaha's to keep. HAHA. I'm thinking of buying one for myself. I am a sucker for polaroid photos. I think I am going to collect Instax from now on! I even bought myself a new top for the BBQ. I had my eye on it for quiet a while now. It's chiffon with a very colourful and bright design. But I had to wear a Cardi with it, since it's a bit too revealing. Asraf would give me the look of are-you-serious if I wore it just like that. Yes, my very conservative 18 year old boyfriend. The food at the BBQ was delicious. All thanks to Mr Hamzah Ariffin. The entertainment by Mr Aimen Mike Xavier was also amazing. We had fun with the chiptunes stuff. While Ema kept spelling her name into her song that Aimen turned into a very cool tune. We did the countdown and opened a bottle of Sparkling. Oh, very New York of us right? Haha. I had the most amazing pie. Seriously, it was all whipped cream I guess. Simply delicious. It was light, it was sweet and it had strawberries. YUMMY! Thank you Zaha for letting me eat most of it. :D
Then it was off to the JOHO event held at Roost Bistro. Yes, this is all very tiring for me. I am here one minute and there in another minute. I reached the place around 8pm. I came in with Asraf to see that the guys are all having their soundcheck. Lynn was nowhere to be seen. So we did the soundcheck before going out to check out the whole place. The place was kinda small. You cant really fit the whole crowd inside. So some had to stand outside or something. Outside was filled with people. There were people selling Cupcakes, others were selling clothes and stuff. Rebirth, my favourite bundle was there. Selling some pretty cool shirts. Which I had the honour of wearing for a promo for Rebirth at the store. It was pretty fun. I got to meet alot of my friends. Most I havent seen in a very long time. Great bands was going to perform. There were us (Finger Inc), Laila, Ziller and the Klasik Ikan Keli, Statik, and last but not least, The Plague of Happiness. There were also poems by poets Feroz Omar and John D Madman. The night was going strong by the minute. They parked this blue VW Van outside in front of the Bistro, and there was this banner of SPAM and JOHO logo on it. It was like this red carpet event where there were photogs snapping pictures as people stand in front of the banner. It was something new, and it was pretty cool. I wanted Asraf to take a picture of me standing there, but I didnt think that someone would actually call my name to stand there and take pictures. HAHAHAHA. OK, it was my friend Yus who is one of the organizers, but dont bust my bubble. It was pretty cool ok! So we took individual photos where we had to hold this sign that spelled out JOHO boldly on it. So I took some pictures with Asraff, Lynn and Apis. Then one with Lynn and Yus. After a while, they called for a band photo. Im still waiting for the photos. They havent uploaded it yet. So after that night, I went out for a late dinner and brought Asraf to Straitsview road. He was really excited to see the Sultan's place. It's huge,yeah.
So the whole weekend was then turned into a tour of JB for Asraf. It was fun driving him around JB. So that he can see the places I usually go with my friends. And the places I dine in. I love the food here. I miss it all the time. :D
Im pretty exhausted. I'll upload some pictures later.
Love, Aqi.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
revival.
I havent been writing since before my birthday, and that was on 15th October. I've told myself a few times that I would finally sit down and write again. Well, I havent.
This is my first post after an interval.
"Sometimes you make me tick like a timebomb."
This is my first post after an interval.
"Sometimes you make me tick like a timebomb."
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
So, just breathe. It's a brand new day.
You're relieved.
I am too, finally relieved.
For every endings, comes a new beginning.
So, we can breathe. Breathe easy. Let's just take it all in, and breathe.
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I am too, finally relieved.
For every endings, comes a new beginning.
So, we can breathe. Breathe easy. Let's just take it all in, and breathe.
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Losing sight.
A guilty pleasure,
Vanilla coke.
&& I am hungry. I feel like nuggets, but I am too lazy to fry some.
I found out today where I am going to be when the clock strikes 00:00am on 15th of October. I will be in a studio, in a place called Mamba with -- maybe five guys, practicing. So much for turning 21. Oh well, at least I am doing something. Rather than sitting at home. At least I get to spend it with those people. Even if they dont know it's my birthday.
And a friend is offering to lend me his guitar for Ara Fest. :) "Alaaaa, awat hang baik hati bebeno niiii!" But I think, I should at least give it a try first. I want to be prepared. Thanks ya Dollah. :D "Aku akan promotekan hang punya guitar."
No one is at home, so it's just me. Lily and Adlin asked me to come to their house, but I am dead tired. So I think I'll just see them before class tomorrow. I hope I wake up earlier than what I am used to. It's making me feel lazy, and lethargic. So no more slacking off! && trying to look forward to better practices until the big day.
&& I now have no expectations for my birthday. Oh, whatever. What am I? Nine? Then again.. *stomps feet*
Until the next post ya!
Love, Aqi.
Vanilla coke.
&& I am hungry. I feel like nuggets, but I am too lazy to fry some.
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I found out today where I am going to be when the clock strikes 00:00am on 15th of October. I will be in a studio, in a place called Mamba with -- maybe five guys, practicing. So much for turning 21. Oh well, at least I am doing something. Rather than sitting at home. At least I get to spend it with those people. Even if they dont know it's my birthday.
And a friend is offering to lend me his guitar for Ara Fest. :) "Alaaaa, awat hang baik hati bebeno niiii!" But I think, I should at least give it a try first. I want to be prepared. Thanks ya Dollah. :D "Aku akan promotekan hang punya guitar."
No one is at home, so it's just me. Lily and Adlin asked me to come to their house, but I am dead tired. So I think I'll just see them before class tomorrow. I hope I wake up earlier than what I am used to. It's making me feel lazy, and lethargic. So no more slacking off! && trying to look forward to better practices until the big day.
&& I now have no expectations for my birthday. Oh, whatever. What am I? Nine? Then again.. *stomps feet*
Until the next post ya!
Love, Aqi.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
You make my eyes bright, dear.
I havent been posting much, because I didnt feel like I had the time. Even though, I had all the time in the world to post at least 2 new ones. Let me tell you why. My time was occupied by that incredible boy, who made my heart skipped a beat on Sunday night. A very tiring and late night. Let me refresh my mind, to write it, makes it feel so very real. Because I still dont believe it happened.
I reached my home in Malacca a little too late. Since, I didnt feel like going back to nothing when I was still in JB. I helped Lynn with her guitar strings and listened to songs that she was trying to finish. We still havent made any new ones since the beginning of the year, I think. She was determined to finish at least two, so that we have at least five of our own songs. Ok, moving on.
I drove to Malacca with a heavy heart. When you're driving towards nothing in particular, where you're not even sure if there's anything to look forward to -- it felt lonely. Even pathetic, maybe. Acap kept texting, asking and nagging and making me feel very annoyed. But he was a good liar. He said, "I miss you." And I answered, "So? What are you going to do about it?"
He said it hurted him to read my text. I felt guilty for making him feel guilty. But, I didnt say anything. I kept on driving. When I passed the tol, I texted him. He thought that I have already reached my place. I laughed when he texted saying, "Ingatkan you dah sampai. You kan drive mcm maniac." Well baby, "I am not a rocket."
After getting McNuggets from McDonald's drive-thru, I continued on the lonely journey back home. When I reached UV, I carried all my bags up -- and they were super heavy! I had like two plastic bags, one stuffed duffel bag, a backpack, my guitar and last but not least, my handbag. Halfway on the lift, it felt like I'm carrying a ton. But I managed! Well I thought that was it, but then I realized I forgot my nuggets. -_-" I had to go down and get it. I might as well have divided the load, and had two lighter trips. Rather than one heavy load, and another one that consist of me carrying only one plastic bag, that doesnt even reach 1kg.
So then I was up in my room with the laptop on and me eating some nuggets. While checking Acap's fb, since he wanted me to see the new photos he uploaded. I couldnt find any. When he texted me to call him because it was urgent, I contemplated about it. He's always saying things are urgent. When I do call him, I find out that he only wanted to say hi. That's Muhammad Asraf for you. Being serious is so not him, so he says. I waited for a while before picking up the phone and speed-dialing his number. So here it is!
When I called he asked me what I was doing and stuff. So I talked to him normally, without any suspicions. Well, I should have suspected something was off -- with his constant questionings on my whereabouts. I thought he was playing around when he said that he doesnt have anywhere to go that night. I was worried since I thought he was somewhere in KL, and in trouble. And he said it so-oh innocently. Then he asked me to open the front door for him. I didnt believe him, since I dont want to be pranked. And he's always playing tricks, I didnt think that this boy, a 17++ year old boy, would even have it in him to pull this off. I opened the door, for a second and then shut it close because he was not there. I was mad at him for playing around. Then he said it again, to open the door. I did -- and there he was.
I stood there laughing. I could not believe my eyes. I thought I was dreaming, since I really wanted him to be there. To be standing in front of me. You know, I've always wished someone was in front of me. When I needed him to be there the most, but it never came true. But this -- he was actually there, smiling that smile of his. I felt like smacking him! I opened the front door gate, and he hugged me. I hugged him back -- very tightly. Like I said, I REALLY wanted him to be in front of me at the time, and he was. I dont know why, but I was so happy.. that even unexpected tears started to roll down my cheeks. I was so embarrassed I didnt feel like letting go until it dried up. He pulled away for a bit, and kissed my forehead. Boy, consider yourself growing up. Haha. I felt like I'm the little girl instead of you being the younger one.
Thank you for everything. You always say, "Mesti you sayang I gila kan right now?" and "You're so lucky to have me kan?" I know I always shrug you off. Well, I do love you. My heart is overflowing with love for you. And am I lucky? :) I hope I am. && Lets make this work, ok?
This Thursday is my birthday, and Friday will be Acap's. Our first birthday together. I dont know what will happen. I hope, good things. Even if it's not on time.
Note : There was a time when I was with you that I unconsciously smiled. It's because -- Do you remember that song I sang. Bright Eyes - First Day Of My Life. The lyrics went like this, "Remember the time you drove all night. Just to meet me in the morning." That's what you did, and it's so funny how it actually happened. I couldnt help but to -- smile.
Until the next one!
Love, Aqi.
I reached my home in Malacca a little too late. Since, I didnt feel like going back to nothing when I was still in JB. I helped Lynn with her guitar strings and listened to songs that she was trying to finish. We still havent made any new ones since the beginning of the year, I think. She was determined to finish at least two, so that we have at least five of our own songs. Ok, moving on.
I drove to Malacca with a heavy heart. When you're driving towards nothing in particular, where you're not even sure if there's anything to look forward to -- it felt lonely. Even pathetic, maybe. Acap kept texting, asking and nagging and making me feel very annoyed. But he was a good liar. He said, "I miss you." And I answered, "So? What are you going to do about it?"
He said it hurted him to read my text. I felt guilty for making him feel guilty. But, I didnt say anything. I kept on driving. When I passed the tol, I texted him. He thought that I have already reached my place. I laughed when he texted saying, "Ingatkan you dah sampai. You kan drive mcm maniac." Well baby, "I am not a rocket."
After getting McNuggets from McDonald's drive-thru, I continued on the lonely journey back home. When I reached UV, I carried all my bags up -- and they were super heavy! I had like two plastic bags, one stuffed duffel bag, a backpack, my guitar and last but not least, my handbag. Halfway on the lift, it felt like I'm carrying a ton. But I managed! Well I thought that was it, but then I realized I forgot my nuggets. -_-" I had to go down and get it. I might as well have divided the load, and had two lighter trips. Rather than one heavy load, and another one that consist of me carrying only one plastic bag, that doesnt even reach 1kg.
So then I was up in my room with the laptop on and me eating some nuggets. While checking Acap's fb, since he wanted me to see the new photos he uploaded. I couldnt find any. When he texted me to call him because it was urgent, I contemplated about it. He's always saying things are urgent. When I do call him, I find out that he only wanted to say hi. That's Muhammad Asraf for you. Being serious is so not him, so he says. I waited for a while before picking up the phone and speed-dialing his number. So here it is!
When I called he asked me what I was doing and stuff. So I talked to him normally, without any suspicions. Well, I should have suspected something was off -- with his constant questionings on my whereabouts. I thought he was playing around when he said that he doesnt have anywhere to go that night. I was worried since I thought he was somewhere in KL, and in trouble. And he said it so-oh innocently. Then he asked me to open the front door for him. I didnt believe him, since I dont want to be pranked. And he's always playing tricks, I didnt think that this boy, a 17++ year old boy, would even have it in him to pull this off. I opened the door, for a second and then shut it close because he was not there. I was mad at him for playing around. Then he said it again, to open the door. I did -- and there he was.
I stood there laughing. I could not believe my eyes. I thought I was dreaming, since I really wanted him to be there. To be standing in front of me. You know, I've always wished someone was in front of me. When I needed him to be there the most, but it never came true. But this -- he was actually there, smiling that smile of his. I felt like smacking him! I opened the front door gate, and he hugged me. I hugged him back -- very tightly. Like I said, I REALLY wanted him to be in front of me at the time, and he was. I dont know why, but I was so happy.. that even unexpected tears started to roll down my cheeks. I was so embarrassed I didnt feel like letting go until it dried up. He pulled away for a bit, and kissed my forehead. Boy, consider yourself growing up. Haha. I felt like I'm the little girl instead of you being the younger one.
Thank you for everything. You always say, "Mesti you sayang I gila kan right now?" and "You're so lucky to have me kan?" I know I always shrug you off. Well, I do love you. My heart is overflowing with love for you. And am I lucky? :) I hope I am. && Lets make this work, ok?
This Thursday is my birthday, and Friday will be Acap's. Our first birthday together. I dont know what will happen. I hope, good things. Even if it's not on time.
Note : There was a time when I was with you that I unconsciously smiled. It's because -- Do you remember that song I sang. Bright Eyes - First Day Of My Life. The lyrics went like this, "Remember the time you drove all night. Just to meet me in the morning." That's what you did, and it's so funny how it actually happened. I couldnt help but to -- smile.
Until the next one!
Love, Aqi.
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Sailing the seas.
All my life, I've been trying to be the person that everyone wants me to be. Maybe, that's why I think I'm so screwed up.
Now, I'm trying to find myself. I still hope that with that, the people that love me now, will still love me. I have been blessed with some great things. But, my life isnt over yet. There are still unchartered oceans I havent plunged into. I hope in time, I will get to.
So with that, I think Im going to sleep. With a smile on my face, and a twinkle in my eyes.
So until the next one.
Love, Aqi.
P/S : I love you Muhammad Asraf. Im not getting tired of saying this, yet. Well I hope -- Never.
Now, I'm trying to find myself. I still hope that with that, the people that love me now, will still love me. I have been blessed with some great things. But, my life isnt over yet. There are still unchartered oceans I havent plunged into. I hope in time, I will get to.
So with that, I think Im going to sleep. With a smile on my face, and a twinkle in my eyes.
So until the next one.
Love, Aqi.
P/S : I love you Muhammad Asraf. Im not getting tired of saying this, yet. Well I hope -- Never.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
That little piece that's missing.
I hate being judged, and I dont take judgements well. As far as I am concern, I am not concerned at all of other people. My concerns are only towards me. I guess I can be called self-absorbed by some. But my values doesnt put me into that category as easy as one can say it. Ignorant.
I take failures fairly well when I have to. I dont see why I have to dwell on things that have already happened. No way of changing the outcome, so why bother trying to change the past when you can change the future. Something you have a chance on, rather than grasping for something that is not there anymore.
I am going back to Malacca in an hour or so. Or maybe more. It's already 2 hours past noon. I better go. My mood swings are swinging towards the negative part. And when I was so excited that things was so positive last night. Snap out of it, Aqi. You know better than to screw up.
Until the next one.
Love, Aqi. More or less.
I take failures fairly well when I have to. I dont see why I have to dwell on things that have already happened. No way of changing the outcome, so why bother trying to change the past when you can change the future. Something you have a chance on, rather than grasping for something that is not there anymore.
I am going back to Malacca in an hour or so. Or maybe more. It's already 2 hours past noon. I better go. My mood swings are swinging towards the negative part. And when I was so excited that things was so positive last night. Snap out of it, Aqi. You know better than to screw up.
Until the next one.
Love, Aqi. More or less.
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