Paintings

Have I ever shown you my paintings? :) Here are some. They're all up on my bedroom walls -- to remind me that nothing is impossible. They're not exactly works of art, but I am pretty proud of them. So here they are!

There are a few more, but I havent taken any pictures of them :) I will upload as soon as I do. The reason I started was because my mind was a mess, and painting on a blank canvas was very therapeutic. The next one is probably one of my favorite. I painted it for my brother Jafr, for his birthday. It took me a while to came up with it, but it was worth it. The trees represent how he is my shelter throughout my life as my brother -- the color purple represents what I remember seeing him in every morning when he wakes up -- yellow represents me, well it's my favorite color -- the colors surrounding the trees represent the days and nights that he's been there for me. I guess that's it. Tell me what you think of all the paintings. I'd love to know how you interpret them. All of us see things differently, lets share!

Until the next one, yeah?

Holga 135 & Quiver & PopmyApple

I got this yesterday. I went to SS2 with Ayap to pick it up and I was nervous. Didnt know if I would fall in love with it or regret buying it in the first place. The first I did when I got in the car was open the box and yeap, fell in love with it. It's so light and it's not that hard to figure out how to use. Loaded the film when we were in Serai for lunch and started snapping photos non stop. Finished my first roll in that few hours. Not really sure how it'll turn out -- so, hoping for the best! Im going to develop it soon. Im just a bit picky on where to send it. Wish someone could help me out. *sigh* Oh yeah, i butchered my second film because I didnt load it correctly. There goes one roll of film I never got to finish. Oh well, I'll get better at it. :)

So this is my first lomo camera. i'm going to save some money for the extras for this camera. More saving for my longboard! I went to wheel love yesterday and saw the Quiver. Looks promising. Im very excited! Did you know about PopmyApple? :D They're awesome. I went to the shop in SS15 yesterday and Ayap bought me a casing. He got this awesome one that made his iPhone 4 looked like a gameboy. They're not even ridiculously expensive. So, I'll probably be visiting it in the future again. :)

Until the next time! :)

Ingrid Michaelson

Lovely songs for a lovely day. :) I hope you'll have a great one yourself!

Happy New Year loves!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! 2012!!

It's been a year already?? My OH my. Oh well, LETS DO THIS!

SAVE UP!

Been on a prowl in the web, searching for destinations for a great weekend getaway. A roadtrip with the girls -- a trip long overdue. AirAsia is having a promotion again. So, we're thinking of booking for a trip that'll probably will be happening next year. If everything goes well, I'll be flying off somewhere sometime next year. Hurray for that!

We're also planning a trip for New Year's Eve. It's in another couple of weeks. Not really sure how we're going to pull it off but I hope we'll find a way. Last year's was a blast but I dont intend on celebrating it like that again this year. That will be the first and the last. Anyone has any ideas on where to go? What are your plans?

I've been looking at travel magazines a lot these couple of days, it's not even funny. I feel like going everywhere! If only money is not a matter -- I'll be jetting off somewhere tomorrow.

I have to keep on reminding myself that I have to save up. For what, you ask? First off, the trip with my friends. Second -- I want to get a longboard, and it does not come cheap. The cheapest are around RM480-500. So, lets just say I need to really tighten the pocket strings.

I cant wait for the new year. I cant wait to do a lot of things. I am so psyched about all of the things that awaits. I need to rediscover myself. To live by the moment, and to repair the parts of my life that have been long neglected. I can do this!

Oh yeah, I am also looking for a camera. Any will do I guess. As long as I can take pictures with it. Even the ones still using film. Instax is burning a hole in my pocket. Too expensive to even think of restocking it all the time.

I hope for the best. Next update, coming soon!

new horizon!

Bitter realization as I realize -- my world is too small. I need to discover that new horizon, that desperately drips in color for me to take a step towards it.

I havent been taking you on a walk with me. I was merely spinning around in one place. Trying to break free -- but too controlled to even step out of the spinning frenzy. Can I say 'no more'? I am not sure. Let's just say, I am open to new things and a new me.

Well, I am still going to be me, but a reinvented one.

I hope so.

So here's to the end of the year -- hopefully not the end of the world.

Cant wait to see what's waiting for me at the unveiling of the new horizon, lets pray for 2012. Lets make things happen.

Milow & Marit Larsen - Out of My Hands

Movies unwatched. Books piled in the room, with the pages still unturned. Listening to music without actually listening. Some things are just coming and going. Some things are just static and not moving. Thoughts are swirling in my already too pre-occupied mind. I am trying to make sense of things. I wish it was easier, but it never is. I am not sure as to why, it hurts.. So, this month started great but now my walls are thickening and it is closing in. I dont blame anyone. This is all me. It is just my way of reacting to your silence.

What is becoming of me? I need to shake myself awake and focus. I need to find myself. This is not me. I am not weak.

I hope I am wrong about you -- but something tells me that I dont want to find out. Im too scared to even try. It's out of my hands.

"I made the call just too late,I just thought I could wait for one more day, in the time that passed, you went down so fast."

"Out of my reach, out of my hands, I didn't understand, I would have changed all my plans."

"At four a.m., some battles fought are battles won, but this ain't one of them, one more shadow cast, you went down so fast."

"I let you go."

Goodnight.