My worst & my best

I wonder --

If someone cant accept me at my worst, then will he deserve to see me at my best. I know, I am not perfect. Is there such a thing as a perfect human being. Even when I was younger, someone asked me this question "No one is perfect, so why is there a saying that says 'Practice makes perfect'?"

I was quiet for a moment, and explained that it means two different things. You are who you are. You cant really change that. I've seen people change, but to what extent? Not that much really. All you can do is hope for the best, be the best that you can, and hope to eventually find people that accepts you for who you are as you walk through life. Those are the people that would be with you until the end. We are so different from everyone, and yet we find that we have a mutual understanding and friendship between those people. It doesnt mean that we have to find people that are exactly like us, just similar or alike.

I am flawed, I admit it. Very much that sometimes I dont know how I have people around me that can stand me. I am pretty sure they get annoyed by me at times. I am thankful to those that stood by me for years and hopefully for years to come.

I can be very loud when I want to. Mostly, when I am with friends that have the same sense of humor that I do. I can laugh continuously until I have stomach cramps. I can be very quiet when I feel like it. Those are the moments where my thoughts are scattered everywhere, or if I feel that it is not the time and place to be loud. I love being with people who can take jokes and at the same time be the one who's telling them. I do not find people without a sense of humor attractive. I also dont find people who has a rude sense of humor attractive.

Guys usually find quiet and reserved girls more attractive than girls like me. My friends and I conclude that girls like us are usually seen as the 'friend' rather than a girlfriend material. I think that's just one opinion. Or is it not?

I find that, I would love to have a boyfriend who is like my best friend. Who can laugh with me, and has the same sense of humor as me. Who could let me gossip to him all night about the trivial matters that happened that day. Who could let me do what I love without criticizing me, rather than doing that, he would support me in what I do. As I would do the same to him. I'd rather have someone who has his own thing, that I could support him in and be proud of him rather than not having anything in his life, that he would be clinging to me because he has nothing else to do. Yes, spending time together is good, but time apart doing what we love is great. Someone who can accept me at my worst. I may have my own reasons for being the way I am, and if he can stick it out -- I feel that he deserves to see me at my best. I would feel like I would want to show him the best that I can be.

Right now, all of this seems impossible. It's OK. I can only do my best. Whatever happens, happens. When will I feel like I am ready? I think when the right person comes, I will be. For right now, I'll focus on my life and do whatever that makes me happy. It's my life, I have to live it, no one else.

I know I am not girlfriend-material. More like friend-material. I dont think I want to be someone's girlfriend for now. Being single is all good. You dont have to have someone special in your life to be happy. You make yourself happy. It is all up to you. Who says I dont have anyone special? I have God,my family, my friends and my dreams. That's all I need for now.

50 bucks for books!

This is what I bought using my first RM50 free book voucher from the government. I havent read them, so I am hoping that it'll be good. I was looking for a Paige Toon's book eversince I read Pictures of Lily by her. I wanted to get her other books, but Baby Be Mine was the only one available at the Popular Bookstore here in Malacca. Should really go to the ones in KL soon. The other one is called Match by Ally Condie. I'll leave a synopsis of both books at the end of the post. I have to go, a friend of mine wants me to accompany him for a late supper. So, that's it from me for now. Until. later!

Baby Be Mine by Paige Toon
♡ All Meg Stiles wants is a happy life for her little son Barney and herself. But she knows that her happiness is a fragile little thing. Because her son's father is not her partner Christian but her former lover Johnny Jefferson, and both don't no anything about it. Johnny, a famous rockstar, broke Meg's heart once and she is not willing to give him a second chance, but when he realizes that he has a son everything changes and Meg has to decide how to go on.
How will Meg's future look like and will she give love a second chance?

Matched by Ally Condie

♡ On her seventeenth birthday, Cassia meets her Match. Society dictates he is her perfect partner for life. Except he’s not. In Cassia’s society, Officials decide who people love. How many children they have. Where they work. When they die. But, as Cassia finds herself falling in love with another boy, she is determined to make some choices of her own. And that’s when her whole world begins to unravel...

What? No, I was being sarcastic!

No -- really. It does.

Masks on! Masks on!

So I am posting this while wearing a mask on my face. Tonight, I am using the Himalaya Fruit Pack -- which is here :

Last night, I wore one from The Face Shop, which is the Hyaluronic Acid Face Mask Sheet :

I dont really like sticky masks, but after wearing it, my face did feel a lot softer. It would really do a lot more, if I could just get my sleeping pattern back to normal. I am becoming more and more nocturnal nowadays. It's screwing up my body.

Info on the Face Shop Hyaluronic Acid Face Sheet Mask :-
♡The Face Shop Essential Mask Sheet Hyaluronic Acid Mask, a desire mask to supply moisture to skins. It contains Hyaluronic Acid to watering any dry, washed skins. It helps prevent the excess oil from skin when it is fully hydrated.
♡ What is Hyaluronic Acid, you ask? Well, from what it says at the back of the pack -- it is the key water maintaining substances in human skin and can bind 100-1000 times its own weight in moisture, keeping skin silky soft. (This is a fact, since I used it for a day and a friend of mine said my skin looked really good and asked what I was using -- thought it was Botox -__- , ok ignore the last comment like I did when my friend said it to me)

So some info about the Himalaya Fruit Pack Mask is as follow :-
♡Consist of Apple,Fig & Papaya. Apple, to improve and nourish skin texture --Fig/Cucumber provide cooling effect to the skin -- Papaya smoothens the skin -- Mineral clay soothes the skin and removes deeply embedded impurities.
♡The best thing about it is, it really does tighten your facial skin. You can feel that as it dries, it pulls your skin and make them look really smooth after you wash it off. What I dont like about it is the tingling feeling when you're putting it on. It goes away after a few seconds. I thought it was due to the fact that I have sensitive skin but I've read some reviews of it, seems like everyone is having the same experience.
If you have some breakouts, it will dry them up and you can just scrub your face with a scrub cleanser like Burt's Bees. It works wonders! I love this scrub!

I got this for free in a gift bag after a shooting for a magazine. I wasnt really sure if I was going to like it, but since my facial cleanser was finished at the time, thought of giving it a try. I love it. My face was cleared off from breakouts during 'that time of the month' (which is a real pain in the ass for my face and hormones). 

♡This deep cleansing natural scrub is clinically proven to exfoliate dead skin cells while refining the appearance of pores without over-drying or irritating skin. Salicylic acid, derived naturally from willow bark extract, penetrates deep into pores to help reduce acne and prevent future breakouts, while jojoba beads and a natural fruit acid complex combine to gently exfoliate resulting in clear and smooth skin, naturally. Dermatologist tested. Noncomedogenic.

It really does scrub your face without over-drying or irritating it. Your face feels really moisturized after washing it with this scrub. I love how it feels like you've already put on some moisturizer after rinsing it off. It's really good for those who have sensitive skin. You should really give it a try! It's almost finished, so I should really go and buy a new one soon.

So this post is getting too long. :) I'll post what I am using for cleansers and etc in another post soon, and why I am using them.

Bye!

P/S : The title reminds me of when I played Paintball w/ the girls -- where we keep on taking our masks off after the game and getting yelled at by the marshals. Geez, we can hear you, you know?

Out for a spin!

4//1//12

Tested the Olympus and those were the results. We didnt get to take more shots because the sun was setting. The last one is from when we were eating Tutti Fruitti after playing a game at BBP. I dont really know the name of the game, but I've seen it before. Usually people will put down a name of someone famous on a piece of paper and paste it on the other person's forehead and they have to guess who they are. We put down the names of brands instead of famous people's name. :) Been really busy lately. That's why I am a little behind.

Until the next one!

Feeling like this today (Outfit Of The Day) ♡

What's in my make-up bag?

So here are some of the cosmetic products that you can find in my make-up bag. Well, the ones I normally use anyway. I keep it simple with the products that I use. I dont normally wear bright or colorful eye shadows when I am out. I would either not wear any, or I would wear very subtle tones e.g earthy/nude colors. I do have the tendency to stick to one kind of product at a time since I'm used to it -- unless they're discontinued or I find a better one when I feel like experimenting.

(from left to right;upper)

♡ SKII Skin Signation Cream in Foundation ( I use it as my compact)

♡ Stage Photo Pro Foundation in 04 Take 3

♡ Eye Shadow Mono in Buttercream;Havana;Andalucia;Turkish Delight

♡ Bodyshop Liquid Eyeliner in Black

♡ Silkygirl Natural Brow Liner in Dark Brown

♡ Skin Food Aloe Sun BB Cream in 02 (lifesaver!)

(from left to right;lower)

♡ Stage Wonderluxe Satin Matte Lipstick in 01 Naughty Babe;02 Buff Belle;17 Apricot Angel

♡ Maybelline Color Sensational in Summer Sunset

♡ Maybelline Hyper Curl Volum' Express Waterproof in Brown

♡ Silkygirl Perfect Cover Concealer in 02

♡ Stage Wondergloss High Shine Lipgloss in 05 Helen

♡ Stage Lip Liner in 01 Nearly Naked

♡ Vanilla LipSmacker

So, that's it! If I have anymore updates, I'll post them up. I'll post my other beauty products later. I better get ready. I'm going to the campus and then heading to town for a hangout session with the girlfriends :) Whoooo!