i remember.

Yes,I know. It's not exactly like the original. I heard this a few times. And didnt bother to actually listen to it more,so this is all I get. I play it like how I remember how it sounded. :P The one with me is Nadea,and the one who's recording is Fida. And yes,there were mistakes,but it wasnt that much. What do you expect,she learned it in a matter of minutes. So excuse us. :D But nevertheless,I LOVE THIS VIDEO. AND I MISS YOU GUYS!

So babies,next month we'll hang more ok! And we'll sing our hearts out again. Until then,watch this and remember me in your hearts. <3 HAHA

get on with it.

I want to stand in an open field. Hands stretched out. Face turned upwards. Wind blowing my hair. Basking in the ray of sunshine. Eyes closed. And I feel... Content. Blissful. Where the only sound I can hear are my slow breaths. The only thoughts I have are "I want to stay.. like this. Just like this".

When I open my eyes. It's like everything crumbles down.. Dark clouds loom over me. Wind howling in my ears. And rain starts to pour. The only thoughts i have are "How did I get here?"

Even when I'm trying to look straight ahead and move forward.. I always feel like I have to look back with each step I take. When can all this stop.. So that I can just run ahead. No more looking back. I need to do it. Or else I think I might just die inside.

PCD song makes me sing out loud.

I hate this part right here.

I hate this part right here.

I just cant take these tears.

I hate this part right here.


I cant find words to say. Words to say to make things better. I feel like nothing I say will make it better. I wish there were words to make you understand. If there are words that will make you understand,I cant find them.

I find myself repeating what I say,several times. OCD? Or im just making sure things are getting across. Which it never does.

Goodnight. Wish me luck!

And yes. I seem to be rambling. I cant explain much about this post. My head feels foggy. I nnneeeeeeedddd SLEEP!

Sleep deprived makes me mad.

Long sleeved colarred button shirt.

I just realize something. Something weird. Something random. Something so unimportant but it made me laugh.

"Pkai kemeja lipat kat lengan?" DAAANG. Haha. That's kinda hot.

Ok that was random and I know it sounds like WTF? But I just realize that it looks good. Usually I only see it on my brothers and yes,yuck for me to say they look hot. So when it's on someone else. Well,it looks good. So guys. If you want to look nice,wear one. Haha.

That's all for this. Ok I'm just stating an oppinion. To use this against me is just wrong.

Bye.

(Too lazy to find pictures. Maybe later. Or probably never? Haha.)

.no more letting out.

Breathing in.
Breathing out.
Eyes wide open and heart poached and prodded.
I inhale,the scent of new beginnings.
I exhale the pain of lost memories.
The scars run deep,with little mercy.
I kick and scream,but only in my mind.
I kick. I scream.
I did.

I dont know what more I can write. Without someone taking it and using it against me. I dont write controversies. And yet,I feel like I cant write anymore. I miss writing. About everything. But I dont think I can anymore. Damn it.

Bye bye.

.where has it all gone to.

I could never understand what goes on in a person's head. How they would think. How they would interpret things. How they process a feeling and react to it they way they do. Everyone has their own way of dealing with things. No matter what other people say,they will do what is comfortable to them. People tend to pick their safest route and stick to it. Maybe,sometimes they will think out of the box and do something out of the ordinary and the end result? Who knows. It can turn out to be good or it can turn ugly. I think it's easy to read people,but I just don't get them. I just.. don't. 

Im trying. Real hard here. To just let go. Im letting go. Because so far,there's nothing to look back to. Nothing changed and I think I already knew that it never will. I guess there's nothing left but to just look ahead. 

I think I cried for nothing. Nothing at all. I was wrong to think that maybe I made a mistake. It's not fair but it's the way it is. I just have to deal with it. No more weak moments. I have to give this my all. All the energy I have. So that I could move ahead. Just get over it,and no turning back.

If I can remember that. Then maybe,I'll be just fine. 

"I am the master of my fate,

  I am the captain of my soul."

  -William E. Henley.

I wish I had that spark back. 

SNOT.

Ah yes,I wonder when it's gonna come.

*SNEEZE* Yeap. Definitely a flu.

My nose is runny. Eyes watery and burning. Head throbbing.

So much for my kick-ass antibodies.

I dont know why.. But I welcome this. Flu? Hell yeah!

-.- Goodnight.

*Captain Sleepyhead snuggling under the blankets*