Friday, December 26, 2008

Long sleeved colarred button shirt.

I just realize something. Something weird. Something random. Something so unimportant but it made me laugh.

"Pkai kemeja lipat kat lengan?" DAAANG. Haha. That's kinda hot.

Ok that was random and I know it sounds like WTF? But I just realize that it looks good. Usually I only see it on my brothers and yes,yuck for me to say they look hot. So when it's on someone else. Well,it looks good. So guys. If you want to look nice,wear one. Haha.

That's all for this. Ok I'm just stating an oppinion. To use this against me is just wrong.


(Too lazy to find pictures. Maybe later. Or probably never? Haha.)

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

.no more letting out.

Breathing in.
Breathing out.
Eyes wide open and heart poached and prodded.
I inhale,the scent of new beginnings.
I exhale the pain of lost memories.
The scars run deep,with little mercy.
I kick and scream,but only in my mind.
I kick. I scream.
I did.

I dont know what more I can write. Without someone taking it and using it against me. I dont write controversies. And yet,I feel like I cant write anymore. I miss writing. About everything. But I dont think I can anymore. Damn it.

Bye bye.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

.where has it all gone to.

I could never understand what goes on in a person's head. How they would think. How they would interpret things. How they process a feeling and react to it they way they do. Everyone has their own way of dealing with things. No matter what other people say,they will do what is comfortable to them. People tend to pick their safest route and stick to it. Maybe,sometimes they will think out of the box and do something out of the ordinary and the end result? Who knows. It can turn out to be good or it can turn ugly. I think it's easy to read people,but I just don't get them. I just.. don't. 

Im trying. Real hard here. To just let go. Im letting go. Because so far,there's nothing to look back to. Nothing changed and I think I already knew that it never will. I guess there's nothing left but to just look ahead. 

I think I cried for nothing. Nothing at all. I was wrong to think that maybe I made a mistake. It's not fair but it's the way it is. I just have to deal with it. No more weak moments. I have to give this my all. All the energy I have. So that I could move ahead. Just get over it,and no turning back.

If I can remember that. Then maybe,I'll be just fine. 

"I am the master of my fate,
  I am the captain of my soul."
  -William E. Henley.

I wish I had that spark back.