*blink blink* -.-'

I've been writing random things on scraps of paper thinking that it might worth something one day. Or maybe it'll go into the dustbin. Either way,it's precious to me. If I can make something of it,I will.

The days are humid and hot these days. I have never perspired this much by just sitting around the house. I feel sticky and irritated that my head feels like exploding. My eyes feels awfully dry and at times it'll get too watery for my comfort. For the people who has spent countless times with me,you'd know that watery eyes doesnt really mean I'm sad or I'm crying. I guess to me it's normal. Sometimes I feel like maybe I havent cried enough. The ceiling fan doesnt do any justice. It's still frigging hot. At least at the sauna you can get a massage after. Anyone for a massage?

I feel like Sushi. I dont know. Just a craving. Maybe later. Doesnt feel like writing much tonight. Although there are some things I feel like getting off my chest. I guess it'll just have to wait. I talked to old friends and sometimes I feel like I miss them but.. I dont know. I feel like eventhough they're still the people I go to if there's anything. I feel oddly disconnected. Like we've changed so much.. And there's no way we can be like we were when we were kids. I miss those.. memories. We were like glued to each other. Despite having to go to different schools we were still pretty close. I feel like now.. Things will never be the same. And I will always miss that. Through the dramas and fights and tears and laughter.. As far as girlfriends go. They're mine.

I guess I can be hard sometimes. That doesnt mean that I dont want someone to at least come over with food and a smiling face to not ask,but to just be there. When Ema said she threw a friend a suprise birthday party,she said she never received one. Just the giver. I realized I never got one either. Sometimes I wonder.. maybe I wasnt such a good friend? It makes me think. Am I never going to have people like that in my life?

I better go. Bye bye.